Angel 5.0 & Silverblack, Desire

Weight update... if you scroll my page, now WAY down there, you will find my posts of my bathroom scales, day after day, for the last 2 months. I hired a, sorry, but I just think he is the most beautiful guy on the planet, and I can never just say "Coach" I have to say "beautiful" LOL, my fingers just won't type "Coach." I hired the most beautiful man in the entire world, ok, Angel, well, I did, as my Empowerment Coach. Basically, he is teaching me to focus on myself, improve myself. I've spent decades focused on others.

Yesterday, I told him, we text every day just about, that because of HIM making me make my page "glow" - his concept - that I now had WAY too much attention. He said, "Well, fine-tune your goals and desires." I said, I just wanted to read my books and take care of my granddaughter. That's it. I said I had too many people MAD at me, now, because I don't want a new boyfriend, and they keep coming out of the woodwork. I said I was happy without a boyfriend.

I've lost 27 lbs. under my Coach's care and I've "glowed up," his concept, which means pretty much I am paying attention to my hair, makeup, and clothes wherein I hardly ever did that previously. I told him when we got started that I did that on purpose because it was my experience in life that when I actually TRIED to look beautiful it just turned into a hassle because I got too much attention. But, because I think he is the most beautiful man on the planet it has given me the incentive to let him teach me.

He suggested, in the beginning, that I call myself and my stories I asked him if I could write about this, he said yes, that I call myself, "Angel 2.0" but then after a bit he said I had progressed to "Angel 3.0." I wrote a couple of stories I call "Angel 4.0" but they are more private and I didn't publish them. So, now I'm calling our stories "Angel 5.0." I named him, in my stories, "Silverblack," because I write CREATIVE Non-Fiction, true stories but with a fantasy flavor and I fell head over heels in love with his hair.

He has the most beautiful hair God ever created. It is long (I LOVE long hair on a man) and straight and black but it has natural highlights of pure silver. Who ever heard of that? His hair isn't dyed, it is natural. Oh my goodness. Then on top of that he has spent the last 15 years in the gym, and his body is perfect, absolutely perfect. Then, on top of THAT he is artistic, it is called "aesthetics," to a point that he surpasses Monet for beauty and style. He's just perfectly gorgeous and I couldn't be more head over heels for him. I can't even LOOK at a picture of him without it doing something to my heart and emotions. SO, yes, Coach, guide me wherever you want, just point the direction and I'm there.

I've barely even explored his MIND and it is just as advanced as my own but in a different direction, the direction God had been leading me to when God presented this Adonis to my life. So, yes, I know I'm out of control but he is just perfection and I can't help it. SO, I've figured out that when you finish the focusing on Others path, Jesus was pointing everyone to, it circles back to the place where you focus on your SELF. I've been documenting this path I've been walking with God my entire life. So, I recognize changes and it also always matches whatever I'm retranslating in the Bible, so I know I'm dead on right about this.

WHEN you reach the focus on your SELF path, at the very beginning of that path, God has prepared supplies for you to help you. I've rarely worn makeup. Therefore my skin is just beautiful. Then, you add makeup and hair and clothes and 27 lbs. of weight loss and wallah. It's a gift from God for those who reach this place. You have to devote your life to focusing on Others, like Jesus taught us, first. I did. Wallah. This is so cool figuring this stuff out.

Step One, the gift that God supplies you with to help you on this unfamiliar path, is DESIRE. So if you read to here you can FEEL my desire over this beautiful, I just couldn't write guy without adding beautiful, GUY. He's my Coach. I know, I know, believe me I know. DRAT. Anyway, fine. So I'm letting him Coach me and that's what you see going on on my page. I came here to write about my weight, my DESIRE got in the way because I mentioned him.

My weight. I started at 184.4 two months ago. Tristan has been my Coach for 4 months and 1 day now. Yes I keep up with the exact days, that's how strong my desire is. I'm in heaven. Did I mention how beautiful he is? Angel shut up. My weight. Tristan taught me to fine tune my goals, my intentions. My intentions from the very beginning were to not just lose weight but to get beautiful like him.

So I've been watching what he does and letting him teach me. I gave up once and gained 10 lbs. back. I started over and lost it. Then, in the last two weeks I gave up and gained 10 lbs. back AGAIN. I've almost lost it. I had gotten down to 157.2 and just couldn't do it any more. Today the scales said 160.0. So I'm almost back to the lowest I had gotten. I just have to hang in there a bit more. My goal was 150 which was ridiculous because it has been decades since I weighed that low, literally decades. It's been decades since I was 160 which I am right this minute. So, anyway, I just thought I'd check in because there are friends watching me, saying, "How in the blank are you doing this?" This is it. xo Angel

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Written July 26, 2025 at 10:12 am

Angel 5.0 & Silverblack stories on my website contain this entire journey xo